Something is lurking

I do not even know what to expect, but I expect something, and want to be preparing. Everytime I get a moment to use, I get this same feeling like it is getting closer. What is it? I am completely in the dark except for a knowledge that something is lurking.

I do have another experience to share, where I was at a low then, out of the blue a solution sort of unfolded without my intervention, or did it? I took action first, but was low because of supposed failure. Ok, let me tell the story. Wait, wait... the moral of the story ( and I tell you upfront so that you see it unfold as I did, though there are probably many ways to understand it) is that the best things happen in a way we do not expect, but is better than we planned or intended.

I had one thing on my mind, getting a car. I am not going to get started on the reason, suffice it to say it was important. It was so important I nearly put it before paying my tithing, etc. Nearly, but Thank Heaven (literally) that I didn't. I had been searching for weeks because I wanted to make a rational choice BEFORE I had the money burning a hole in my pocket. Patiently, I waited as funds started to add up, and I got excited as payday finally arrived and zi had the money to buy the car I had decided on, although technically, none felt like the exact right one, so what, huh? I needed a thing and had the means. So, we loaded the family up to go see the first car, we got stuck in a traffic jam, and I got a message that it sold. So, it was back to the other one, I told myself it was the one I really wanted anyway. It was a beautiful dodge caravan that tan fine, but had some cosmetic issues, but everytime I made arrangements to purchase it, situations changed. I was really getting an overwhelming feeling that I was purposefully being avoided. But, as the ride I was trying to arrange kept falling through, I was told that it was scheduled for being scrapped at the dump yard this morning. It was out of my control, I thought, hmmm, maybe it is difficult to see if I will endure as a measure of my sincere desire or something. I did want it, but ultimately had to resign myself to another failure, but I HAD to do something. So, I posted on my Church neighborhood's facebook page an inquiry and left it at that, but totally not desiring to even look anymore. Also, there was an issue of a lost bank card so I did not have access to a large ammount of money until a replacement card arrived anyway.
    I pittied myself a bit then tried to forget my disappointment in my dutties. Then, out of the blue, I got a txt message from a neighbor asking if I still was looking for a car. I was putting the kids to bed, but replied that I was actually. And believe it or not a very vehicle I saw newly parked by our house (someone had successfully got the exact new vehicle I wanted, it was a perfect silver dodge grand caravan). To shorten the story, the same vehicle I often admired, was being offered for sale. I bought it! Everything worked out perfectly!!

That story tells me that even if I have things planned out perfectly according to my plans, I will be happier with another plan, so if I am the planning sort, perhsps more prayer is in order to put my plan in a line with one that is obviously better. So, in this case, although I do not have a plan, per se, one is unfolding and I do not need to know what will happen, but I WANT to know and in quiet moments, like this. I face it fully. My conclusion is keeping doing what I have been taught is correct and pray if I want to know. Yet, recognize that knowing isn't going to change anything but my awareness. Hey, cool quote!