Sunday, May 7, 2023

Most significant, personal event

Tonight, I made a choice to live as I was born and believe 100% in things I cannot understand. This was manifest in a very simple, to most, action of deleting once and for all the money-making (time/life- wasting) applications from my phone. The reason this was so hard for me is the same thing I see in struggles of people recorded since the beginning of time, relinquishing the one way we see of accomplishing a desire. 

One of the best examples of this is in the Bible story of Sarah and Abraham. Sarah was a smart cookie, her husband had been promised a thing,  but instead of just trusting that God would prepare a way for them, she figured out a way to accomplish this and put her ideas into action  now, I will not argue what I couldn't possibly understand, but in my situation it seems like it was forwarding God's purposes and a good thing, but ultimately it was her idea, instead of praying and trusting, Sarah got busy figuring out how to make things happen. It is like Peter when he started to drown when trying to walk on the water ( a thing he totally could do ). It is a matter of believing that God can actually do what he says he can. It is only natural for us to doubt. But, in my situation, time and again, it has been proven to me that God is able to , by miracles if needed, do his own will. My job is to help the rising generation, ok, well, I cannot do much of anything without the finances. It has always been in the back of my mind that I am often overlooked for opportunities to serve because I am a slave to money,  and one cannot serve God if they are struggling to just stay alive. So, deleting all of my accounts is something I had wanted to do for a very long time,  but I doubted having any financial security unless I was making it happen.

Now, I am thinking of how it seems counter-intuitive for a skilled athlete to not participate in a career essential event because it is on the Sabbath. Now, it does not even matter what day it truly is or isn't.  The concept here is that a person must willfully decide that honoring a commandment will bless them more that seeking the accolades of accomplishment that comes with this event. But, time and time again, that has been proven. A God who asks people to do a thing will always make it more worth our while, than anything effect that we may be striving for.

Plainly, I felt like I should delete my one sure way of making an income (like selling my van) which is actually like a thousand other choices that I have finally made, though hard to do. I do not know what will happen and that should stress me, but to the contrary, I am at peace because it was what was the right thing to do (eternally speaking). It makes me more reliant on the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Those evil Roman overlords will not be over thrown by this dude ( or action ), but following him will be possible... oh, one more very significant thing that occurred to me tonight was from a video that blah, blah, blah said that such and such would enable us to be taken home to our father in Heaven, and instantly it reminded me of the parable of the Lost sheep which was not persuaded to rejoin the flock, nor forced against it's will, but it was lovingly carried back to where it belonged.