just concluded this!

The reason I have ever been confused, doubted my worth, or basically lacked faith was because of one thing. It is probably a gift to believe that I am a daughter of God, but I do without reservation, my trouble has always been that I did not create any proper representation for "God". In my mind He was always this overlord, or disembodied "goodness" floating around. Do not get me wrong. I have been taught clearly many times, in fact, who the Godhead is. But, I echo the words some script writer for the recent version of "The Cosmos" gave to BRUNO when he said, "Your idea of God is not big enough." I have all the pieces in place to overcome. At this moment, I feel like the seed in the Allegory "The Garden" by Michael McLean. I am all ready to grow, and I have been confused as to "why I can't grow", It all hinges on a better comprehension of who God is...Semantics, but maybe that is what also causes us to "fear" him. It would be truly humiliating to understand what he can do, and yet, We are everything he is in embryo... it was put best on the cover/bio of Tal Bachman's self-titled debut cd. He had never even tried or considered music, but he was an acorn, and an oak tree was inevitable, although an acorn does not seem to resemble the thing it becomes. He goes on to explain how many things seemed to have been preparing him for such a life, he claims that it was all he really knew how to do. I think that maybe all of my failures or foibles are me becoming a very bad duck, because I am actually a swan. Frankly, I am right on track to become what I will be it is just that I do not recognize it in this realm. Ok, I need some sleep.