morning brain dump

I am sticking with it, and that seems to make all the difference. Really, it could have been any plan or habit, regardless of evidence, previous success or popularity, for me it would merely being a case of sticking to it, and the way I was able to do it was to stop looking up new ideas. When I started a routine regardless if it worked or not, as I got bombarded with ads and influencers trying to, well, Influence. And I would always fall prey to thinking that I actually was missing that routine or supplement and so I would give it a try, until the next routine caught my eye and each would have worked had I stuck and committed myself to it. 

This is the same lesson I learned at Youth Conference when I was young. The goal was to make it to the Celestial Kingdom, which required sticking with a plan and seeing it through. But, I got silly ideas about getting sealed to someone I didn't know/like and so I was halted for a long time, until I figured out what I needed to do and did it.... and though, I probably would have been persuaded to abandon I had done so before and regretted it. I would not allow this to happen again. It is similar to how you learn from a dream or story where you get a second chance because the mistake didn't really happen yet.

Yesterday, I found a better idea and nearly abandoned ship, until I realized that I was doing it again. There might be better ideas, but the one that succeeds is going to be the one that I can stick to. Which is the one I am currently using, regardless what negative self talk tries to persuade me from doing something. I am already committed, I am stubborn and will not alter until after I find that it did not work because, frankly, I am losing lots of weight already.... and that is why I even started looking around again anyway. I feel it is unhealthy because I am losing weight so fast, but, it is good and reassuring thing. I honestly believe that change is fast right now because I am snaping into who I should have been all along, and the pace will slow down once I reach that sweet spot where I belong, weightwise.

morning dump

This is a goal, I have no real discovery or point of interest to unveil, though I dod listen to a great talk about the significance of families, and most notable were two things, or rather I have two things to share that might be of some worth, as they were to me:

1) Many religions were gathered with different beliefs, but in common was the sanctity and importance of the family. Of note is that a Moslem leader shared verbatim the proclamation to the world on the family put out by the presidency of our church. The speaker explained that few things hold us all together firmly as the love of family does. We are all members of a family, afterall.

2) in opposition to our beliefs on the family is the world's.  But, even if. The world, the majority does know that the family is the best way to live and be happy, but for some reason the media presents loudly the view of the minority making it seem larger and more desirable.  

There, I did it. I can check it off as completed.

morning dump

I have started a new routine today that might last, or be the last, fingers crossed. It came about because I have been struggling with sleep prioritization, and had again decided that I needed to swap being daurnal (sp) for being nocturnal, because for years now I have not been able to sleep because my husband plays loud video games until 11pm, and though, I always believe that I could sleep regardless, I cannot. But, as always, I just have a sense about sleep and circadian rhythm that tells me that is a bad idea, so I recently asked Google if the 7hours of daily sleep need be at once, and it doesn't,  so I am going to adjust according to what obstacles I cannot change, and realistically I get about 3 - 4 hours of sleep at night, so, I will adapt a pattern of always sleeping 4 hours in the day. This will help in so many ways once I establish a solid rhythm. My body adapts well to cycles, it just wants consistancy and my new plan offers it, and I consume less, which also makes me happy because all my e ervise requires I eat more and I cannot afford to eat more, so I cannot afford to exercise so much. I will always move, just less, and consume less, so I use less mental energy concerned with how much I am getting to eat and if it will be enough....which honestly, it never was, and I ate to satisfy health plans, not craving.... if I had my way, I would practically never eat, and so I am excited for this new plan to take effect. It is ultimately all about doing what works for a long run.

morning brain dump

I have the most terrible headache. Usually, it is traceable, but I can think of nothing that would cause one so severe. I even checked the radar, and nothing, except for a severe alert, heat advisory still in effect, but I have done all of my exercise indoors for that very reason, so I don't know what is causing it. Unless I was right before in distancing myself from water flavor that is calorically free/negligent. I have been able to drink to my water goals because of it, though. But, it is not worth this headache.

morning thought

Nothing is actually working besides my ability to set the parameters of success around the results the way Goofy places a picture frame around a scribble that he cannot remove from the wall.

So, I am faced with a dilemma. I was going to use walking as a source of income, but I am trying to establish a habit of walking everyday at 10am (my body responds to consistancy) but, it is too hot to walk outside, and when I walk with a favorite video, I must have ads forced upon me, and it hurts my hip joint, so I use an video game on the wii. Only, this will not track on my fitness app so I must manually add it, but, that will not give me credit on my money making app. So, do I find a new app or find a new habit or simply ignore them both as neither concern ought to fill my thoughts. BUT, the reason I was doing walking at all was because it would allow me to stay active and make a but of money without having to focus on it, but turns out that is what I am having to do.

Ok, my reasoning now is to just delete the app, the stress was never to even be a part of it. It was suppose to just happen, not make my life change to fit it. That works well enough.

I will begin to search for some other method to accomplish that.

Happy day!

I found a way to make money without having to walk for miles outside in the heat! This means all round success for my less mobile games and less exercise...without giving up my only reliable source of income. Oh yeah, I lost 2 lbs after a month or two. Finally! Maybe I was holding on to it cause of stress of having to go outside, who knows,  who cares, all is good with the world today, and I am going to concentrate on others and strive to keep it that way.

run to regain piano skills?

Ok. Here is my report. I woke up early enough to run this morning, and the temperature was ideal, which is unusual in the dog days of mississippi summer, I got home, showered, did laundry, and made breakfast before the kids got home from seminary (I left with them to run, and my watch said it was a 25 minute jog). Report is, I felt great! And I could think more clearly than I had in some time, but ultimately I do not think such a practice is sustainable, I felt rushed, and I did not get as many " steps " as I wanted so that I may cease from making money playing scam games, so I will need to make a little adjustment. I still plan to run daily. I was inspired by an advertisement about an old man known by many as "the runner guy", who started waaay daunted by the thought of running even a mile, but he walked for years, but then just decided to jog a bit and the rest is history. 

As I started walking today, I thought, it is ok, sometimes it is better to just slow down and master that first and progression will naturally happen, I do not need to rush it, like my Hannon exercises, which frustrates me because I have already done that, been there, but to relearn properly requires a whole lot of patience, and as I sped up my metronome of exercise one, I realized that I was not ready, though I could do it, sorta, I needed to slow down and do it right before I sped up. I really think this same principle is true for running and the two complement each other.  I found that walking improves my Icelandic, so I extrapolate that running effort would make piano skills and patience improve.... but, though it worked well. I even did a Scottish shower for 30 seconds. Still, I am absolutely going to change how things are done, mostly because I feel zapped and the day hasn't even started yet.