Phone dump (mostly song ideas)

Clarity -
A song touches what nothing else can say. Situations are backing me into a figurative corner. I have to keep eliminating ideas to support my theory, still I will not deny it, and I do not know why. If this is insanity why are you my clarity. I would give, sacrifice?, everything to have this one thing. Is it worth it? It is like choosing a major in college. Dreams had to be dismissed, but it focused me. Likewise, things I thought were monumental, I am being forced to realize they do not matter so much afterall, but the thing I want would be worth it, but would the chance at what I want be worth it? There are so many things I ought to have considered, but only now am realizing.

Here is how it works. I use a belief as a prop or crutch. I depend wholely on it and if I believe it, I must stay alive. If I believe it I must correct my wrongs. I want to correct my wrongs in my way to achieve peace of mind, but that peace of mind only comes from believing that my crutch is right, so how could I choose between them? If this is insanity, why are you my clarity?

Clarity - how close is it to unity
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Song idea in roughest form -
When you made your first valentine. I was not the one

When you got sick, but had one final request before you died you wanted someone, but it wasn't me.

You asked me finally to dance, and even wrote a song. My friends all thought this must,be love, but I was not the one you wrote about.

You responded to my online ad, and followed with a request that I really be for real, but I'm not the one.

All along I've been beside you loved you like a friend and all I can do is cry at your wedding because all along I'be been so right a perfect fit it seems. But, I am not the one you choose. I just know that I am the one you truly need.

Who knows, maybe life went differently and maybe it could change, but seeing how things are right now, I terribly glad that I wasn't the one.
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Love me, already -
Yes, I love you, and it breaks,my heart to even have a simple part of you forever in my heart.

I chose to run away before
But cannot remember why
I only know that it would be suffering
Unless we both could die,
Cause I could not live forever without you.

But, we both made our choices,
Though yours I cannot believe
Could you really live forever with out me?

I know that you are brilliant, and that's the part I love, but when your act is played out, then can we be one.

Said plainly, we are prone to the same way of seeing things, so I know that you can see things as they should be.

Just, love me.
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My Prayer -
It is all lost!

It used to be enough to want to feel your loving touch, then I yearn for you to hold and make me feel secure. But, now I want to kiss you. talk about forever, I no longer need to ask if this is love.

So, this is it? This is love, the kind that saves us from ourselves and makes us one no longer two, although we knew. We never actually said it, this is love

Nothing lasts forever, I cannot agree, just look at you and me. Nothing lasts forever unless it's me and you. True love is not as rare as we been taught to think, it is not a coincidence that we are both alive even if no one said that this is love.