At various points I could have expressed opposite points of view in perfect honest sincerity as I felt the whole gamut today, you know how they say stuff? Well, they said something about the harder they fall and I understood that today, only backwards. I was so stinking mad that when something good happened it seemed like more of an opposite, you know like happy and sad or sick and healthy...
I hope the way I feel changes again because, at this point if it weren't for the kids I'd take off, come what may. That happens too often, but one of my friends helped me see it from a better perspective. I need to stick with things, but keeping eternal perspective helps me see that as long as I'm alive here I can restitute and fix things, it's like fixing my computer, sometime is gets so freaking messed up that though harder it is best to start over fresh, be it a clean install or in my recent case a new computer. One I had no reservation getting though Nick called it a dinosaur.
The baby really deserves my full attention, pardon me.
This is actually is a good metaphor for me right now,because I am waiting for something maybe a miracle, or just a new idea to fix Joseph's computer and it could be fixed by a means that only requires financial backing, and Nick has helped adressa tiny little issue that if it was theissue only, it would have seemed larger or a deal breaker! What should I take from this?
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