glucose meter

I have decided to use a glucose meter to decide what I can eat, or if I want to eat how much exercise I must do. But, my results have been extremely odd.

I was 70. I had Chicken noodle soup so I was 77, then, I did my nighttime exercise so I could have a snack. But after I exercised I was 85. Huh? Must not be waiting long enough to check. I recall with Kinsey, I had to wait a while before adjusting insulin because I did not want to be zigzagging giving her highs and lows as I tried to figure it out. But, the strangest thing was the dawning effect. I woke up and took my glucose to kniw where I started today, and it was 91, so I exercised and took it again, expecting it to drop, but it was 103. I didn't care my goal was to stay below 120. So, I ate a breakfast sandwich and checked to see how much of an effect it had and it read at 81. Right now, I am waiting for a drop to have time to register after I did HITT on my bike and I am cooling down so I can safely eat dinner. My son looked up and said that I am well within the normal range for my age height and the kids ganged up on me and wanted me to stop dieting altogether.  I am pleased that they even care, cause I just quit my exercise because my body will freak out about needing to have reserves incase I need it, so I need to be sneaky and only do strength training and normal day to day activities, and just,be grateful I can. Ok, time wasted, time to test myself and set the table. Also, I have discovered knooking and I love it!!

my conclusion regarding weightloss

Most of what I have tried I knew was a scam, but I figured that it was worth it to try the product/service in my own way, like a fitness routine or meal plan. I think that I even knowing what following such fads had done to others, I thought that I was different and, like my dad warned me, " Don't mistake what you want right now for what you need." I just ignored it because I wanted it to magically work for me. But, my ultimate realization time and time again is that it is like the lottery, one could accidentally win, but chances are not with me, and I realize that.

   As I pondered what I should do. I realized the obvious answer was in front of me... use my time and energy to draw closer to God. It is my being that I truly want to improve. I want to be loved and thought the secret to that was being beautiful. But, what little science I have tried to logically follow, my body has time and again reacted differently that it ought to have by what I have been taught, like if I eat well and exercise and fast, then I will loose weight. It is not at all that simple! My body will absolutely NOT burn fat for energy. I might be sort of keto diabetic, though my body can produce fat, once there it cannot use it or eliminate it, at least not the way I have been taught.

Not all science seems to make sense, like a prayer making food multiply or turn water into wine, but truth is truth, it can be done and Heavenly Father understands truth  He understands exactly what I am going through and why. It sure seems to me that if I hope to be beautiful, drawing closer to him would make far more sense than trying to loose weight.

    Maybe, I will not gain too much weight, either way, I have been promised health, and my time for being attractive in appearance has passed anyhow. And if I am ever to be at peace with what I am I need more understanding, not more scams. I am just going to stick with the truth that has been revealed to the prophet of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints regarding care of our great gift of a body. This has been revealed in the form of a program or method to be used by youth in the church. It is done by focusing on well-rounded improvement in these 4 areas: 1)Physical 2)Social 3)Intellectual and 4)Spiritual . This is how we ought to develop and mature. More or less than this is obviously a scam. I know this, and it is no easy thing to do. It is likely my greatest blessing to be able to believe. I not only CAN believe such things as I had been taught. But, I must believe them because I have never ever had a credible reason to not and several undeniable reasons to accept the things I have been taught as truth. It was sincerely my greatest gift to have been raised by such wise parents.And now, it is my duty to help as I have been helped. And, so I decide this morning, the best way to peace of mind is through drawing closer to my Heavenly Father, not in focusing on how to manipulate my body to be more attractive.