There are so many things intended for me

Most things would not make sense without lots of explination so I do not bother. This particular thing is only for me, but I wanted to make a note of such. May it serve as a reminder at times I feel unloved or otherwise insignificant. That is not true. Remember that woman in WA who knew who her patriarch was, it was life changing, huh?

Love

I need a good talking to. I am looding grip on why love matters in the grand scheme of things. I know it makes us happy and it solidifies bonds, but it seems like a "natural man" thing that we need to get over, like Greek Gods used to explain things that happen and we don't understand, it must be love. But, I was thinking how I have no appreciation let alone love for my husband, and thought I really ought to talk to him seriously about it because I am deeply worried about what it is teaching the children. Then I thought, well why should I teach them anything else? I want them to be entirely in love, but I do not know why. Sometimes I think I wasted all of the years I was loveable being un loved, oh, another thing. Often, I am reminded how much God loves me, and everyone, and we are all god in embryo, right. So, maybe it us a trait that should be developed and encouraged, in which case I am a huge huge HUGE hypocrite. I should just go to sleep I have already thought enough for one day.